Inspiration does strike you at odd times. Extremely odd times, indeed. It is past 2:30 am now and just ten minutes ago, I was watching Game of Thrones. But I suddenly felt  that itch to write again. That same itch which I feared had left me. A lot has happened since I last wrote and I don’t want to bore anyone with all of that. Instead, I’m going to write a letter to the person inspired me to write right now.

Dear you,

I can’t believe how much you’ve grown up since I last saw you. I’m serious. It has been a couple of months since I came across you on Facebook by a stroke of absolute luck and I still can’t believe my eyes that it is indeed you. I remembered a kid. A fragile looking little kid. What I saw was a fully grown boy. And I have to say this – the years have been good to you. Exceptionally good to you.

Talking to you again felt so good. At least on my part.. I don’t know about yours. I enjoy every moment of our conversations. Thank you for making me believe in myself. It’s nice to know that there are people in this world outside of my family and close group of friends who still believe in me. Thank you for not belittling me unlike so many.

I’ve never really said sorry to you for all that has happened in your past. We’ve never been that close for me to broach on that topic with you. You didn’t deserve all of that but I hope you’ve made peace with it all. And I hope you never again have to deal with that type of sorrow.

I’m actually proud of you. Of how far you’ve come. I see you writing all these beautiful arrangements of words with such enthralling pictures and I get amazed. I know you’re destined for great things and I can’t wait to see you succeed in life. Also, your birthday is in a couple of days.. so : Happy birthday, dear. Make me prouder, you ass.

With loads of love,

From that bibliophilic nerd.


Venn Diagram

What has he done to her? She hasn’t even spoken a word to him but she can’t not think of him. It’s like as if he is slowly latching himself onto her mind and she’s just not able to loosen up the hold. She may or may not have seen quite a few pictures of him on Facebook. She may or may not have scanned through those pictures in which they were a lot of people, trying to locate his face. And when she did, her heart may or may not have tried to skip a beat. But she did come to an important realization. She is different. He is different. Two opposite realms, all together. They’re a Venn diagram with no intersection.


Uninspired? Yes, me.

Lately, I’ve been feeling quite uninspired. I’m on my summer break and  I had planned to catch up on my reading/writing during this time. Even though I’ve been reading a LOT, I haven’t been feeling like writing.

I’ve been using Wattpad as a platform for applying my writing skills (the little bit that I have, that is) since 2014 but in the second half of 2015, I wasn’t able to write anything for the lack of time. It has been more than a month since my exams have finished but I’ve not written anything new. I have two unfinished stories on there : Margarita With a Straw and Eighteen. I had got quite a good response for MWAS and I KNOW how the rest of the (unwritten) story is going to progress but I just don’t feel like writing. Why? I presume for my lack of inspiration. You see, music has always inspired me. I guess, I can say that it has been a whetstone for my (limited) imagination. But it has been quite some time since I’ve heard something new which has fired up my brain, so as to speak.

So today, I’m asking you a favor. Tell me your favorite songs. Songs which inspire you, encourage you. Songs which make you feel like you are on the top of the world. Songs which give you the sense of determination. Songs which make you believe in yourself. I don’t care if it is a new or an old song. I don’t care if it has been sung by an artist I’ve never heard of. I don’t care which genre it is. I just need something that will inspire me again. So PLEASE help me my fellow amazing bloggers!


The People Pleasers

I don’t like people pleasers. Not at all fond of them. I’m talking about the ones who pretend that they like what you like. They say that they love the same book, same movie, same song, same artist, etc as you. You’ve never heard them speak about that subject ever before but the moment they come to know that it is your choice, they go something like, “OMGG! SAME! I like it/her/him SO much.. like SO SO SO much.” And I call this bullshit. Utter shit. I’m speaking from experience about a certain acquaintance. This person always likes the same things as I do.. always. And it annoys the hell out of me. I’ve never heard you mention that author and all of a sudden I’m supposed to believe that he is your favourite?!I never heard you speak about him ever and now he is your “jam”? Doesn’t make any sense to me. I just wish that the person would stop doing it. Seriously. It’s getting nauseating. I can see that day very clearly in the future. The day when I go all ballistic on this acquaintance. And I don’t want that to happen because I don’t want to hurt the person’s feelings. So instead of blazing out with all my imaginary guns of words, I’m going to type it all away. Hoping that this is going to work.

I’m aware that this post is me ranting but I needed to get this out. I really needed to. On another note, I came to know a very interesting thing today. Apparently, everyone and everything around us has an “aura”. Like, physically. It is a physical thing. I never expected it to be. With this, I’m going to end it here.

Go and give a hug to a person. Could be anyone. Your mum, dad, friend, grandpa, girlfriend, boyfriend, aunt, cousin… doesn’t matter. Just go and embrace someone tightly. You know never know, this random spontaneous act of yours might just be the reason for their first smile today. 🙂


Theory Of Relativity

Lately I have been thinking about life, just in general. And I have come to the conclusion that it is just a BIG unfathomably deep ocean of relativity. We have to work hard to be successful in any field. And that makes sense. But what we tend to forget sometimes is that it ALSO depends on how well others perform.

Suppose you get 92 out of 100 in some test. It is pretty good, right? Now, if there are 25 others who have got more than 92 then your marks somehow losses its value before others. But if there are only, say, 2 more people who have got more than you then you will be hailed by all. And this is what I mean, life is a big big big pool of relativity. You have to do good.. there is no alternative to that. But others have to perform worse than you to give you that sense and security of “doing good”. And I hate this.

I absolutely hate this.

And the worst thing is that I can’t do anything about it. None of us can. There is no security for anyone in this world. Doesn’t matter if you are a world famous scientist.. you might just wake up tomorrow to find out that you have Alzheimer’s. Or suppose you are a famous actor but tomorrow there just might be someone better than you. And this is all so RELATIVE.
I’m not sure if this makes any sense at all but I just needed to let all these thoughts out. Writing all this doesn’t change anything. Life is unfair. All I’m going to tell myself is – suck it up.


Why Don’t You Let Me Be Free?

All of you dear readers must have noticed quite obviously that these days I have been gushing over the songs of a certain someone. Anupam Roy. Yes, I’m going to write about him today. Particularly, I’m going to write about one particular song of his. It was released a few years back by his band : The Anupam Roy Band. I came to know about the song just a few days back. The thing which surprised me was that it was an English song. I didn’t have any idea that he sings in English so quite obviously, I went to YouTube to check it out.
Second Sex.

That’s the name of the song.
Now.. now .. reign in your thoughts. I know that you’re thinking that it is a vulgar song. But let me tell you something, it is anything BUT vulgar.

In December 2012 there was a horrific horrendous psychotic gang rape case that took place in New Delhi. I’m not going to go into any details about it because it is bad. BAD. Just thinking about it horrifies me. This particular case ignited something in our citizens and there were wide scale protests against it. New laws were implemented. Steps were taken. Now, this wasn’t the last rape case. We have those in a daily basis.. cities, villages, everywhere. Only a few are brought into the notice of the media. Many cases are never reported. The condition is BAD. I’m saying all this because we have a number of masochist and chauvinistic males in our country. Not all, I stress. But the amount of people who fall into the category is quite large. Women are not given enough security and somehow the victim is always made to be at fault. Apparently, girls should not wear skirts or jeans according to them. We should not be out at night. We should not use mobile phones. It is basic legitimate shit but comments like these are always made.

In the song, ARoy sings about how the society thinks that the girls need to be protected. He says that she isn’t your mother/daughter/sister.. she needs no protection. She needs to live in a secure and safe society. You need to provide her that. It is a basic right that she has. We, as a society, need to make sure that she feels safe living. She should be free to do anything that she wants without having the need to look over her shoulder. We need to give her the freedom of being. He expresses this opinion because according to him, rape is not an individual’s problem. It is the problem of our entire society.

And he is 100% right because rape is indeed the problem of the society. Just debating among ourselves on national television about it isn’t going to change anything. We need to take steps. We need to start putting others before us the next time we see a girl getting eve-teased. Slap him, kick him, hit him, abuse him, shout at him in front of everyone.. I dont’ care! Just gather some f* courage and DO SOMETHING instead of being another apparently unaccountable person in the crowd of people who just don’t give a shit.

Here’s the link to the video : http://www.google.co.in/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=web&cd=2&cad=rja&uact=8&ved=0CCQQtwIwAQ&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DZLdcKMKGQXk&ei=vTlnVZicMdK3uAST64LABQ&usg=AFQjCNF8FSJZuFIwVlLnIR8SVVhzuUebrg&sig2=Hab6ad0JdeU3rL6Ue7X_IA&bvm=bv.93990622,d.c2E

Go listen to it. And please do take a minute to read the note that Anupam has published along with the song.

Also, there was a lady who commented that why he has called the song “second sex”. I think it is to bring the focus on the sexist population in our society who think that females come after males.


I got retweeted by him today! 😀


Because Brainy Is The New Sexy

I can use many words to describe today – inspiring, relaxing, encouraging, productive, joyous.
My cousin’s board results came out today and he has done unexceptionally well! He has improved so much and has made my family proud. This has inspired and encouraged me to do better too. He aimed for the sky and he has come out with rainbow colours. Now, I need to make sure that I do the same too next year.

I have been working on my biology practical file for the entire day and have been successful in writing over thirty pages. I am nearly done with all the writing.. just two pages left. Then I have to start on all the anatomy diagrams.. I’ve got a whole bunch of them left. Phew!

On another note, I spent my afternoon with my headphones on (and doing project work, of course.. no, I don’t play truant 😛 ) listening to a Bengali album released last year by none other than, Anupam and it was a fresh change. Out of all the eight songs, not a single one of them is about love. It is about society, stereotypes and everything normal that happens in our day to day lives. He speaks out against misnomers and labellings that we give to people without ever thinking twice about it. It was very melodious with lots of classical Indian instruments playing in the backdrop. But a couple of songs have elements of punk rock in them too.

Listening to him was a nice change for another reason. After a long time I listened to a “mature” voice as in not a singer whose song is mainly focused on the teen / early tween generation. He is a mature guy talking about mature things in a slightly sarcastic way directed to the society. It is good.. it is great. I should listen to his other albums too.

My friend, Sonika, mentioned in her blog a few days back that elder people have a lot to offer in terms of knowledge, insight and understanding of this crazed up world. I realized she was indeed correct while I pondered over all his lyrics and their meaning. Elders are cool.. much much much more than you and me.

For the time being, I am going to wrap it up here. I need to go and continue with my practical work. Also, I have to study for a test tomorrow.

Be good everyone. 🙂